My name is Lorraine. I’m 23. I’ve been fighting depression and social anxiety for a while. I’ve been trying to get through everything by myself, with only the emotional support of my partner, Amandi, and my small circle of close friends. But lately, things have taken a turn for the worse and I feel like I’ve hit a dead end.
My goal in life is just to be able to live with the person I love, calmly, quietly, without stress. That isn’t to say I don’t want to work, but..
My current job is.. well, terrible for me in almost every way. I’m not very strong physically, so I’m constantly in pain. My coworkers expect so much of me that I can’t give because of my physical and hereditary conditions. I’ve been working there for three, going on four years and it’s been.. hell for the most part. Sometimes things calm down but then something else happens and I feel like death for weeks or months. In those situations, I get incredibly anxious and nervous and sometimes I miss work because I’m at home having anxiety attacks. Which makes my coworkers get angry at me and it’s just.. an endless cycle. On top of that, I don’t get that many hours, I have all of summer off, and the pay isn’t nearly enough per hour to save for a house or move out. Which brings me to my next point: my situation at home.
If it wasn’t for this, I would be able to deal, at least emotionally. But lately things have been getting worse. I hate publicizing this sort of thing because I love my mom and it’s very personal but I don’t know what else to do at this point. My mother is abusive due to her own mental illnesses. It’s something that’s tolerable sometimes but gets worse other times. She decides when to take her meds, so it can come out of nowhere. I love her, but I just can’t take this anymore. She’s manipulative and doesn’t realize it.. Unfortunately she isn’t the only problem. There have been a lot of tensions between my mom and my partner’s lately because they both seem to think the worst of each other, even though they’re really similar.
We both want to become independent and move away from them. Making money ourselves and still seeing each other is very dependent on their cooperation (we live an hour away and neither of us can drive) which they can revoke whenever they see fit. We’re constantly treated like children at 23 years old, yet they refuse to help us take our independence.. because they don’t really want that.
I want to get another job but my social anxiety just doesn’t let me. The idea of interviews scares me so much. I was homeschooled during middle to high because of bullying, and then took my GED. Although I’d really love to be able to go to college, I don’t have the money or knowledge. My mom didn’t really teach me much because I was uncooperative as a child and I could never focus. I used most of my pell grant to go to a technical school that I now work at. They basically handed me the job when I finished because they needed the statistics that say their former students were getting jobs.
I feel like we’re stuck.. like things will stay this way forever until someone passes away.
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Thank you for taking the time to read this! Have a good day. ♥
It would be amazing if you could take the time to support, morally
or financially, this incredibly important and good and talented person who
doesn’t deserve to deal with this. I’ve seen her situation firsthand and know that these feelings
are serious and justified. And, as her partner, her goal is the same as mine.
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You live in a world where magic exists, however, you must sacrifice a memory in order to cast a spell. The more memories, or the more precious a memory, the more powerful the magic. You just woke up with no memory save a name.
now i deeply, deeply love the boggart lesson scene in poa for all of its symbolic/character implications but im sure that shit would’ve only worked in the nineties
like can u imagine that scenario with millennials??? poor remus would have to deal with shit like Abandonment and Crushing Poverty hoppin out of the wardrobe and gettin turned into none pizza with left beef
#*remus lupin voice* why did that student loan check turn into a sad frog
